So, here's how yesterday played out:
1. Am having an emotional breakdown because listening to Sublime on the way to work makes me deliriously happy, but, also gives me the sads because it reminds me of high school and my mom and my high school sweetheart and then I remember that hey, guess what, you're NOT 18 anymore, you're NOT skinny anymore, you haven't talked to your high school sweetheart in SIX years, and oh yeah, you're mom has been dead for SEVEN years. So then I cry.
2. And then there was this whole text message exchange that we just don't even need to talk about. Suffice to say that I was teetering on Courtney Love crazy territory, but, kept it fairly Lindsay Lohan. I'm holding back on the C. Love. I suspect that may eventually seep out in the form of verbal/text vomit. Lucky I have my photographer BFF to talk sense into me. Anyways, the text exchange took up most of my energy yesterday and was exhausting. But, a blessing too.
3. I go to Kroger to get a salad for lunch because I really want Taco Bell, but, there isn't one near my office and I figure I'm feeling fat, so, a salad it is. As I'm pulling out of the parking garage (in which I do not get signal) my sissy calls me. This is the last time I will see her number on my called ID for 18 months. Gulp. And we talk and I tell her how proud I am of her and how much I love her and will miss her so much, but, I'm so happy for her. We talk for a few minutes and then I start crying and tell her I have to hang up and she needs to make some more phone calls. And then I cry for an hour because it's actually happening. I won't get to text her about celebrity gossip, talk about Bones with her, go shopping or be judgemental with her for 18 whole months.
--Note--
At this point, it's already been an exhausting day. I'm ready to pull the covers over my head and go to sleep at 3:15. Too bad I get busy at work at my master plan of leaving early has failed and before I know it, it's 4:59 and I'm still knee deep in work.
4. Then, that evening, as we're heading off to youth group and my stomach has finally calmed down (because I decided it would be a good idea to continue the text message exchange while trying to cook dinner. Read: stupid. Also? Leads to almost chopping your finger off) I get a call from my dad (he can be blamed for the text message exchange, but, I'll yell at him about that later. He's already in trouble for missing my mom's birthday last week). I'm not really in the mood to talk to my dad because I'm exhausted, remember? And parents are exhausting in general. But! But! He called to tell me that the California State Supreme Court decided not to hear an appeal, thus upholding an original verdict. You don't really need to know the backstory, suffice to say: my mom died seven years ago, we went to court. We won. It got appealed. And then appealed again. And then again to the State Supreme Court. And we've been on pins and needles about it for months. Until last night. And then I started screaming and crying and I was so happy I just couldn't believe it. And wanted a cookie.
This was at 6:50PM and I had thoroughly used all my energy reserves for the next two days at this point.
Which is why I fell asleep at 8:40 last night. And am still tired.
Whew. Emotional day over at Casa de SP.
How are you doing?
Oh, and because this post needs a picture, here's a cute one of me and my BFF Lara while I was in California in August. I love her times five hundred billion.
(please ignore that I look kind of chubs and am smiling like a chipmunk. This is a recent development and annoying the hell out of me)
17 comments:
P.S. You are adorable. And nowhere near fat. And if I lived near you, I'd drive right over and give you a milkshake, a hug and an order to get in bed for six-hour nap immediately.
What a day! So glad to hear about the happy verdict news.
Girl, if I was there, I think I would have kidnapped you for a margarita! Sounds like you needed one!
Sorry you had such an emotional day, but I'm super happy for you with the court decision. I had no idea how your mom passed until you mentioned the earthquake recently. (And I certainly didn't want to ask.) I am glad you got the verdict you had hoped for in the case.
And BTW, you look super cute in that pic! Don't be so hard on yourself!!
Everyone has emotional days, you're 100% entitled to one. And you're beautiful so stop criticizing yourself!!! That it all. Love your face.
That sounds like such a rough day. I am sorry! I hope today is better. And by the way, you look so cute in that picture! I don't know what you are talking about.
What a day! But so wonderful to hear about your mom's case. I'm sure that is such a weight off everyone's shoulders!
First, you are sooo not chubs in that picture, in fact, my first thoughts were: wow she's adorbs and she is SO tiny! Second, I'm sorry 'bout the roller coaster of a day yesterday, that's rough. It's tough to get through those days, but that's what blogging/friends/margaritas are for :)
Wow you DID have a very rough day. Ugh, emotional roller coaster. No fun, I've been on that ride before.
You're a busy, busy lady...try to find some time this weekend to slow down and spoil yourself a little.
I was just thinking how cute and pretty you looked in that pic. And tiny! You skinny thing- I'm sorry you had a rough one.
Wow that sounds intense! Thank goodness THAT day is over. And congrats on the court case!!!! (and go get yourself some cookies, immediately! You deserve them!)
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Wow. What a day, babe. Sounds like your hormones are getting the best of you! I have those days too when everything makes me bawl and I end up in a soggy snotty wet crying emotional heap in bed by the end of the day. My husband just shakes his head and thanks God that he's not a girl. :) Hope everything is better today!
You are nowhere near fat! Chin up chica!
I hate days like that. Thinking of you.
But hey...I think you sweet and pretty in that pic! In fact, you look like you've lost weight!
I am so glad you all won!!!
Yeehaw for good news booo for bad! Hope the months fly and you get to talk to your sister!! XOXO
Please forgive me, friend, for not coming by your blog in forever. It may take me 3 days to get through your new posts since my days are at the mercy of Master P, but I'm going to do it!
But back to you, I'm sending you virtual hugs via my internet connection. What a lot to process in a short amount of time! I'm so, so very happy for you that your mom-related litigation nightmare is over.
Oh girl, hugs. Just hugs.
For the love, you are not chubs. I am chubs, and I would tell you if you were chubs with me, but you are not. You are CUTE, doll! I love the cardy/necklace combo, tres chic!!!
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